hello all.
everybody hanging on, alive and well?
um yea.
i need my emergency supply of dark chocolate
but apparently it has been
purloined by a certain family member,
i know not who.
communal fridges are just not for
hiding personal hoards.
SULKSah well.
here's what friendster horoscope has offered for today:
"
The Bottom LineIf you want beautiful things to blossom in your life,
you must prune some dead wood."
/:
i guess so.
have just taken the 1st step.
(what i
meant to do some weeks back)
uhuh, that's checked.
i think the next significant step i shall take
is to write a letter,
which wldn't be sent.
yes.
pen it out,
deposit everything on paper,
and hide it well.
a handul of sand.
i used to hold it so tenderly, yet steadfast,
not wanting it to lose shape.
i wanted to keep it.
i used to keep my hands up rigidly,
not wanting to disturb the pattern.
i wanted to hold on.
i used to clamp my fingers tight,
not wanting a grain to sift through.
i wanted to preserve a shadow.
i used to close my eyes at it,
not wanting to see it,
yet i still felt it in my hands.
i wanted to turn away from something so close.
i have learnt to look away,
not wanting to be reminded.
i wanted to deny the memory.
but it is still there.
sometimes i catch a glimpse,
sometimes i sneak a glance.
and now,
i want to part my fingers,
relax my hands and let all the sand slip through.
into a bottle, and hidden from my touch and sight.
i need to.
to you,
ur random appearance was uncalled for.
it shrouded me in '??????'s
and i was really clueless.
but it brought on this train of thought
that gave me some clarity.
thank you for that.
it made me smile at the end of the day,
and this distance feels comfortable enough.
even though i know i'm the last person u'll
talk to if u had problems,
i still have a listening ear to lend.
be well.
so long till u get ur gpa, haha.
ta people.
(now, that was pretty refreshing)
:D
p.s. to another person out there: watch it.
u're trippin the switch no one ever did.
