chem spa tmr.
man, am terrified. ):
im always clueless during chem pracs,
it's often "what next?'.
shit.
even if my memory works
and manages to rmbr all that dope bout
ppt, soluble/insoluble in excess NaOH blah blah,
i sure hope im able to coherently complete the
test planning part.
ok, chill.
just study.
anyw, yesterday was a bad day for me.
-frowns-
i didn't pon founder's day k,
i set my alarm to ring and it did,
according to my mum.
but i didn't hear, gosh,
exactly how knocked out was i??
thanks mum, for not bothering to wake me up
and only telling me as i groggily sat up in bed
at 12 pm the next
afternoon.
(x
and then i went for training later at 4pm,
cos i honestly admit that i've developed flabs
and my legs aren't
hotnice anymore. haha.
but, sigh, it just got me real down.
hvnt been training for quite some time alr,
been taking a coaching+umpiring orientation course,
so there's been a real discount on physical training/
ball handling, game playing and all.
so when i was put on court ytrday,
i just
sucked.
BIG TIME.
effing screwed up a million passes,
did extremely stupid things.
in short,
i was a loser.
and i was not focussed at all.
ugh.
i was so pissed with myself,
when we stopped for a water break,
i cldnt help but broke down.
i kept it in though,
i didn't want the rest of anyone to see.
so i forced back my tears and played on,
tried to compose myself and redirect the energy
to focus and get my act together.
and yea, it got
slightly better.
but,it was obvious:
i am out of practice, out of touch.
i really dunno why i was so affected.
oh well.
i cheered up after playing
a recrea game of bball with some of the netballers.
fun with no pressure to perform.
-shurgs-
and yes, it rained agin yesteday.
tsk.
was listening to "Say Goodbye" by chris brown
on the way home, and it sorta sparked
a scenario in my mind,
shall tell this song-evoked 'story' another day,
haha (:
i guess it makes sense to say that
we should be a bit harder on ourselves.
though i felt the rest of the things ms lim said,
in all due respect to her, were pretty
harsh,
i think it's really true tt we can afford to be
a wee bit harder on ourselves and
push ourselves a step further.
after all we're rgs girls,
and we're supposed to hv higher
stress managment levels. xD
though its extremely impt that we
don't overdo it la. lol.
k, back to mugging chem.
ta.
