this time round,
even posting has failed to take away
my speechlessness.
i jus feel like clamming up.
i dun even know wat to say, wat to feel.
how wld it be,
if one day u jus fall.
jus fall real hard onto the ground.
and u can't get up.
yet u want to.
u have always been the kind to bounce up,
to jus move on and make things happen again.
but this time round,
u feel unworthy and weak.
not even with enuf strength jus to stand up.
its obvious to seek a helping hand.
u jus can't keep taking and not give.
someone said that.
i feel gullible, dumb, foolish to the utmost extent.
i know i am stupid, insensible and make the least of relevancy in everything abt me,
but this feels real bad. way too vaccuum-like.devoid of emotions and simply empty.
i admit.
i am pathetic.
and so,
i'm sorry,
to all the people a snapped at today.
sining jus wasn't there.
